Buzz buzz buzz!

My mind is buzzing with so much information and plans as well as stress at the moment, Ive also had the song "prom queen" by little wayne in my head all day long. hey dont judge me, its a good song. Anyways. Over the weekend B and I got a wonderful surprise, we are having a another beautiful baby! We were both shocked and amazed! It wasn't planned this time but its still a great surprise. Ive been so excited about it. I feel like i finally get to put into motion all my plans for a natural birth. Im still afraid though, i thoroughly believe women (like myself) have been conditioned to be afraid of birth, and I want to take mine back. I know there is nothing I can do about the choices I made in the past, but i can learn from them and make the future better. It amazes me at what I have learned in the past year. Breastfeeding opened a door for me that I never knew existed. I breastfed my daughter simply because it seemed like the normal thing for me to do, its what my mom did and moma jane. With my son I knew I didnt want to circumcise him, ive always felt like it was unnecessary. I dont feel like there is ever a reason to strap a baby to anything, let alone cut off a part of his body. I truly believe he was born perfect and Im so glad I kept him whole. But breastfeeding with him opened up a new door for me. I started learning more about how healthy it was, and natural. And then a friend of mine, Ashley, led me to cloth diapers. I bought one pocket diaper to test it out, I wanted to make sure it was something i felt like I could handle before I made a commitment. Turns out I loved it! It also is so good for the environment, and it saves so much money. I watched the business of being born movie, that really changed things. I then realized that there are other options for birth! I never knew there were, it was very exciting. I plan on if possible having a home birth this time. I also know i want to do placenta encapsulation this time as well. I do have alot to share and some of the things Ive mention today just touch base. I created this blog months ago with the intent to start it and share all the info I wish i knew before having my two kids. Ive been unable to start it (writers block i guess?) But today i felt like it was a good time to start. I can start sharing and discovering things with my first natural birth. Im very excited. Also before i leave you for the night, Id like to say kudos to kaylene for helping me name my blog. It was a perfect suggestion!